Entry 3

It is now Wednesday, May 5, 2010.  I didn't write in my diary yesterday for a couple of reasons.  My son came for a visit which of course made me very happy.  It's a bit of a double edged sword because I love seeing him and spending time with him.  It makes me feel better to see him physically okay.  But at the same time, when he is here, I worry.  Worry about everything he tells me.  Worry about him keeping his bills paid, working too hard, living alone and eating properly.  Then I start worrying about him driving back home at night and I stress over that.  Sometimes, I even have an anxiety attack because of it.  I just worry about everything when it comes to my son.  That's something I haven't been able to control or stop.  So most often times, I especially have to take something so I can get to sleep once he leaves.  We went for a ride, for a walk at the park and enjoyed dinner and some tv.  It really was a nice visit, as always, just minus the worry. At any rate, besides the worry, I kept quite busy with my son here and as I said, I took something to help me sleep, so off to bed I went as soon as he left.  So I decided I would write in my diary today about my last couple of days.


 Today, I felt a little better than yesterday.  More relaxed.   I washed dishes, did the social medial & networking thing, as well as surfed the net and checked my email.  I had a nice walk with my pup, then a relaxing shower, then did a little biz, cooked and ate dinner.  Now I'm relaxing for the evening feeling fairly calm and stable.  Tomorrow is a new day and I know things can change from one day to the next.  So, I take things one day at a time and I will deal with tomorrow come what may.