Entry 2

Today, Monday, May 3, 2010 was a much better day for me than the past couple of days.  My headache wasn't as bad for one.  As for the rest, I had an appointment earlier this afternoon, so my day was structured which sometimes helps me to stay away from depression and keeps me moving.  Although, at the same time, even though it brings me structure, I can't have to much of it because I would become overwhelmed or feel pressured which causes me to have severe anxiety attacks and sometimes even panic attacks.  So it really is a perfect balance that I have to keep.  A fine line I have to walk if you will.  My mood, though I still felt a bit depressed and on the irritable side was better today, and I was able to keep it in check.  My thoughts still tended to want to race and jump around a bit, but I've still  been able to focus fairly well.  So today, I accomplished getting to my appointment, getting to the grocery store, getting my medicines picked up, taking a walk with my pup, and cooking dinner. Anxiety level stayed fairly level.  So all in all, not a bad day.