Chapter 3, Entry 11

I've been having a difficult time lately.  On top of my Bipolar, I've been having frequent migraines, they seem to be centering around my menstrual cycles.  I'm not entirely sure, but what I do know is I'm getting them at least once or twice a month and for two or three days at a time.  They are killer.  I have prescription medication I take, but it only works to a certain extent.  My migraines are very stubborn and persistent.  They are very debilitating.  They also cause me to go into a deep depression because I can't do anything but lay on the couch or in the bed, so then I feel sorry for myself and feel so alone, isolated and bored to death.

I wish I could tell you how to come through something like that, but I honestly don't know how I did it.  I guess just getting through the day, moment to moment because it was tough.  I shed a lot of tears and felt a lot of pain and hopelessness.  I suppose it was a good thing I was on all my medications or it would definitely have been disastrous for me.  I guess what I'm trying to also say here is that medications are definitely important even in times when you may think they're not.  They may just be the one thing that keeps you from going over the edge.  I suppose it was a combination of medications and pure willpower of some sort.  My message today would be the importance of medications, I can't stress that enough.