Chapter 3, Entry 5

Today is Thursday, November 11, 2010.  I finally went back to the doctor about being so fatigued and sluggish.  She changed up one of my medicines, celexa to a stimulant, wellbutrin which is suppose to help rev me up a bit more.  So hopefully, this will be the answer.  If I can just get enough energy to get out of this rut and get myself back into the gym some, then I'll be much better off.  I believe this new medicine will be a much better fit for me.  The celexa just seemed to drag me down. 

As for everything else, I've been sort of up and down with my mood, but then I do have Bipolar, so that's a given.  Although it has been much tougher as of late because of being extremely fatigued.  Once again, I am hoping the change in medications will help.  I've been trying to do things to keep my mind stimulated by doing my work on the laptop, running errands, housework, tv, and hanging with my friends occasionally.  I've also been trying to get out a little more.  I am having to force myself and it has been very difficult for me, but I did manage to get out to a couple of new places and met new people.  I was very uncomfortable and nervous, but made it though.  I just wish I didn't stress so much beforehand about going somewhere, but I do.  I worry myself sick until I get there and until it's over.  By then, I usually have a migraine or at the least a headache from stressing so much. 

With my medication change is suppose to come more energy, but also it should help lift me out of the depressive episodes, at least more than the Celexa did.  Also, it is an appetite suppressant and god knows I need to lose any weight I can, even if just 5 pounds.  So I'll check back in probably in a few days or perhaps give it a few weeks.  So until next time,  I'm just going to try to continue to think positive as much as I can.